It’s been a few months since I last saw/spoke to you. You have been poisoned to such an extent that you don’t even want to accept my gifts before talking to your toxic mother. Somehow she has convinced you that I am not replying to her lawyers bogus claims and so you are not allowed to talk to me. That’s a lie but you are too little, naive and gullible and scared of her. Your mother has been a liability in every relationship including her parents. She is blinded by her ego which she confuses for self respect and I am sure you will figure this out one day.. She fears losing you because she has seen how much we love each other despite the distance and so she has blocked you from reaching out to me. Instead of making sacrifices for you, she is using you for her own happiness. All the things that she could not achieve because of lack of discipline and commitment, it’s now on you to pursue them for her. You are always late for school, you live close to the beach but have rarely see the sun rise. My objections to this way of raising you always go unanswered and it has been extremely frustrating but expected.

Years ago, I went through a similar situation when you mother just left leaving behind just a letter and no contact. I saw you after a week in the court room and you cried as you saw me… you were barely a year old! The judge heard your mothers solicitors arguments and dismissed the case. Every other weekend I would drive down to London to see you and take you to the park, spend some time with you. It was at least 5 hours drive to and fro but became a routine because the joy of being with you was far greater than the pain of commuting.

Your mother and I were great for some time but she got brainwashed to be involved in a Ponzi scheme and dump her career. I kept telling her that it doesn’t feel right and to focus on a career or passion but taking shortcuts and the greed cost her much more. Looking back at things, I think she only married me for convenience. Following her broken first marriage she probably thought it’s best to start a new life in a new place. I am a very hard and disciplined worker and your mother struggled to keep up with me. She kept creating financial burdens especially at a time when I was looking for support. Her plans didn’t pan out as she had expected and that’s always been a case. To add, communication was always an issue, she wanted me to understand her perspective but always dismissed my opinions and lacked courtesy. I think that’s the reason, I didn’t want to have a child until 4 years into our marriage. But then we decided to go for it because she would not have been able to conceive had we delayed it further.

The smaller problems soon grew and became bigger. Lack of understanding to add to the fact that we were both going in opposite directions caused lots of grief. I still cannot work out whether it’s her paranoia or selfish motives but and she had always portrayed herself as the only victim to get help from others. She has a pattern… write emotional emails, involve friends and family for support and then do what she wants. She has also tried gaslighting my parents but they can now see through her. Even her father struggled until he passed away. You were less than a year old and she took you to USA against my wishes and when she got back I thought we were going to start over but when I was at work, she stole your passport and abducted you. That’s how we were separated and not the lies you have been fed. I was under a lot of medication a s these events had a serious impact on my mental health. She tried playing out the lies in the UK courts but they dismissed her case which was not all facts and so she abducted you anyway and filed for a divorce in India to make it more difficult for us. Whilst I was in turmoil and financially squeezed, I was coerced into the divorce proceedings. I could have pursued the child abduction case which was registered with the British police but then I thought, you were separated from your father and if I separate you from your mother, it’s only going to make it worse for you and so left you in your mothers care. I think this is the only thing I regret, she should have been in prison for scamming people financially and kidnapping you. A lot of people around the world split relations but majority of them make sacrifices for their children. Not your mother; instead you are having to make sacrifices to keep her happy which is a shame.

Your mother had made some bold claims about the move to India. She has not lived up to it and wants me to bail her out and in return she wants to continue to manipulate you which I cannot tolerate anymore. You could have attained the finest education, you could have taken music lessons, learn to play the piano and owned one, etc etc. But you are forced to do what your mother is programming you to do. It is a shame that she is stealing opportunities from you for her convenience. I have experienced this before but I didn’t expect her to do this to you. I just hope it's not too late and I worry about you and I wonder how life would have turned out for you if I was raising you. It is ironic, you hate the person who loves you the most; your mother has managed to virtually kill me/us. As I embrace the pain, I will never forgive your mother and everyone who aided her to separate us. In the last conversation I had with your mother, I asked her to apologise to you for poisoning you but all she wants is someone to pay for her convenience and she definitely has no clue how we feel and the impact of her lies and how it will manifest in the coming years.

You are 8 years old now and due to the events occurred recently, it feels that things are happening all over again. I was in India a couple of months ago and we had a memorable time, the best ever! You stayed with me for 4 nights and we even travelled together for the first time ever and we had so much fun. I feel this made your mother insecure and so she has manipulated you into thinking that you cannot reach out to your father and is controlling your feelings. I am sorry, we are both helpless to an extent but I will not be blackmailed again and this is one of the lessons I want to teach you. I have faith in God’s will and I am sure there is something much better waiting for us.

There is a lot behind our story and very soon as you grow older, I will upload all conversations, text messages, emails, legal communications, etc etc going back 15 years on this site; I do not have anything to hide. Once everything is out in the open I guess you can figure out things for yourself.

Lots of love, papa

I am proud of you; you sacrificed for your mothers’ happiness and stopped talking to your father and your grand parents.

I came to see you twice in 2024; to surprise you on your birthday & during the monsoons. You were presently surprised to see me but hid your emotions and were happy to see your presents which I had accumulated over the months. It was a big bag so I handed it over to your building watchman and the neighbour; little did I know they will hide it and your cruel mother will not let you have them and return them back to us after I left India.

Then during the monsoons but you refused to see me and ran away. Your mother tried every trick in the book and tried to get a police complaint against me for trying to see you but the cops could see right through her and they did not register a complaint and let me go. Your mother has been emotionally blackmailing you or you are scared as you don’t want to lose her. You miss your grandparents but you are not allowed and we are told that you don’t want to… But over the years, your mother has revealed her true self to people. She would not accept your grandmothers’ calls and lie to her about your feelings. Behind that innocent looking face is a shadow of self obsessed woman how has lost everything to hide her fake pride and the web of lies. She has lost yet again, she is putting herself before the only person who unconditionally loves her.

I have come to a conclusion that Sharma family are a bunch of cold hearted crooks who will do anything to get things their way and make some money at the cost of their own. Anyway, who am I to judge when I am still trying to understand myself.

Your father was involved in a tragic accident and had to be rescued and had to undergo a serious operation. My friend at the time tried to reach your mother so I could talk to you but the cruel animal behaved heartless as expected. The moment she has worked out that there is no money to be made from us, we are no longer important or valued. You always asked me why I left India when you were little and one of the reasons is to stay away from people like your mother who are found in abundance.

She is trying to play God but we will see for how long. Remember, pride always comes before the fall. It has been very challenging to not express all the emotions I have for you and grief overtakes eventually but every cloud has a silver lining. You must know that I did not, on this occasion get blackmailed by your mother and I wish for you to be stronger than I am. Perhaps, God wants you to learn something from all this and when the time is right, your mother will pay her dues.